times

the unborn

I Was feeling sorry for myself
I Lost interest in anything else
I Could only see.
My baby died inside of me
I Had to forgive myself
I Had to move on to something else
My friend Had an idea to cheer me up,
Lets see a phychic

She had a message from an unborn lad
He said Mummy please dont be so sad
I chose not to live, cos I had a bad heart
I didnt want to be a burden

I Felt overwhelmed and yet relieved
I Knew it was time to stop the grief
I Smiled through my tears
At last I could bury my fears

She had a message from an unborn lad
He said Mummy please dont be so sad
I chose not to live, cos I had a bad heart
I didnt want to be a burden

I Felt overwhelmed and yet relieved
I Knew it was time to stop the grief
I Smiled through my tears
At last I could bury my fears
He didnt want to be a burden,
no he Didnt want to be a burden
no no noooooh
He didnt want to be a burden

my baby.

!

Cunt!

That is all

too much on my mind

the closer i am to leaving this drag of a town the more i have on my mind. i need some sort of release, i need someone to talk to, i need a shoulder to cry on, i just need someone to take the time to listen.

its all got too much and i feel like i may break down

Bear

Every time i read this my heart breaks even more.

its strange how you can lose so much in one month.

November 2009 - pure heart ache and pain

my bear and my baby

Head fuck!

I loved you like a sister and you abused my friendship, you stripped me down until i had nothing left but my real friends. if it wasn't for my girls god knows what sort of state i would be in now.

yet just a few words and my heart wants to let you back in. i think of all the good times we had, and the pain you caused disappears.

yet in my head i keep thinking, am i being silly? will you hurt me again? how can i trust you after everything you did to me?

help?

i wish i was as pretty as her!

And that tattoo is HOT! x