Thursday, 28 January 2010

Craziest 2 nights of the year!!!!

well me an Harriet have had the best Monday and Tuesday of the year so far :)

Monday started oh so civilized, just a few drinks and lunch with our friend Carl. but a few drinks soon turned into making our way to mayhem, drinking so much we can just stand up! we stayed in mayhem until the very end at 3am! while making our way out of mayhem we met some lovely barbers that dragged us down the casino until 6am! they spent their time buying us yet more drinks an teaching us how to gamble. after the casino we then went back to theirs in Rochford for a champagne breakfast! at about 12pm me ant Harriet decided to head into town for a fry up, regardless that we hadn't slept yet and looked like we were street walkers, but on the way we made a pit stop at Rochford market where i purchased a very pretty fly bracelet! After our amazing breakfast that was devoured in 5 minutes we had a little shopping spree then both went home to prepare ourselves for more carnage that night!

Well once we were both washed an changed we all met up at the Alex for a few drinks. these few drinks once agin became a lot more! we left the Alex at 12am an made our way to the Clarence Yard to see some friends. we then all decided to carry on drinking at our friend Phil's house. and once again i didnt get home untill about 11.30am!

ahhhh how do we get the energy for all nighters? Crazy times!!! all i have to say is these two nights were amazing an i wanna thank Harriet for that :)

Myspace Pic's

i found some old pics on Myspace, oh these were the days . . . .
And i dont think i have changed in the slightest haha

Blandings shoots!

So while in Bromley i had some fun doing a few shoots for my sister and her house mate Natalie! was so much fun! cant wait to go back an hang with them all again :)

Tuesday, 19 January 2010


Scaring people on Chatroulette is the best!

Monday, 18 January 2010

Day 1 @ Blandings!

well, it felt so good this morning to wake up in a different world to mine. here in Bromley there is no drama, no imaginary social pyramid, an not many people that know me :)

so far today i have had a cup of tea with Harriette and Tricia, played online for a bit, had a shower an got dressed, at lunch which was yummy an now we are chilling watching C.S.I.

i love lazy chill out days with my sister :)

Sunday, 17 January 2010

Drama hungry pricks!!!!!

why do people feel like they have to try an cause unnecessary drama? i dont care that my friend is sleeping with my ex, we broke up a year ago so who ever went through all the trouble of makin a fake facebook profile just to send me a message telling me. . . . . you shouldnt have bothered but cheers for goin through all that for me! hahaha

The people in Southend really do need to get a life!

Saturday, 16 January 2010

Here's one we made earlier . . .

Happy 18th Birthday Yasmin!!!

had a fab night in at Yasmins for her 18th!!!

hope she has had a good night too!

miss the hubby still tho :(


Friday, 15 January 2010

Best Husband Ever . . . FACT

He is so lovely too me!

Love him loads :)


ROCK ON!!!!!

I am too cool!

slipping away

every day my heart breaks more. i dont know what else to do!!!!
i try an pretend its not happening but it is and i have to face it. This is goodbye to my life an hello to reality. . . .
i will be ther for you an i will give up everything for you!
i love you mum, with all my heart.

the days where i just didnt care

Come back?

never ending love

its so hard to remember the days that mum could run about the house doing all the cleaning and cooking as well as keep me and my sisters entertained.

now when i see mothers and daughters out shopping, the feeling of jealousy overtakes me. i wish we could do all the things we used to do, go shopping, go for meals, go down the seafront and play on the 2p machines.

it may not seem like much to most people, but when you cant do all those normal things anymore, you miss them so much and would give anything to be able to do them one last time.

at what point did God decide who will be healthy and who wont?

life is unfair

Cant wait to escape

I cant wait till tuesday when i escape from my world for a few days!
staying with the sister to clear my head and figure out what to do with my life
and who really is important.
seems like life is a never ending struggle at the minute.
and when i get back from Bromley i will be going to stay with my other sister :)
thats if she will have me!
my nights out are going to be none existant, more important things need to be done
and i need to be there for my family more!
but my girls are always welcome to join me

Thursday, 14 January 2010

Saying goodbye is always the hardest . . .

i hate it when my world goes quiet
i remember your not here
and i cant bring you back

xXx I miss you xXx

Some men have no respect for women!

Make's me sick!

Wednesday, 13 January 2010

In a fantasy world

~~ ♥♥ A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty and he said no. She asked him if he would want to be with her forever and he said no. She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry, and once again he replied with a no. She had heard enough. As she walked away,tears streaming down her face the boy grabbed her arm and said.... You're not pretty you're beautiful. I don't want to be with you forever. I NEED to be with you forever. And I wouldn't cry if you walked away...I'd die... ♥♥ ~~

Sunday, 10 January 2010


So, me and my friend Rob are plannin our fake Goff wedding :)

so far we have decided that ill be wearing a black lace dress and the bridesmaid will have dark purple lace dresses.

Rob will wear a black suit with black skinny jeans an a dark purple tie. as will the best man, his twin brother mikey!

The flowers are Black roses :)

And the cake is perfect, it has DRAGONFLIES on it!!!

for the honeymoon we are gunna travel America an visit loads of famous gig venues!

ahhhh married life will be bliss!!!

My Life <3

Amy is my Heart . . . .

Sam is my Mind . . . .

Harriet is my Soul . . .

Kay is my Smile . . .

Amber is my Child Within . . .

Without these girls, i am empty!